Learning that you are the Boss

This post is about how i am learning that not everyone will want me to succeed with my goals and how I plan on getting over them

I joined this company around 7 months ago. I thought I was recruited for a PMO (Programme Management Office) Analyst role. First day I see the hierarchy and there it is “Hannah Young – PMO Lead”…my first management role, 2 roles up the ladder from my recruited role. I was the Team Lead of a team of 4 (1 offshore) What the fuck was i getting myself involved in. But i am young and ambitious! Hell Yeah i have just got a promotion, i have got my own team, awesome. And there is a part of me that still feels that excitement. But mostly i was naive. Its hard work establishing yourself as a Team Leader if you never had to before, a Team Leader of a team of 4 very different women and 4 women who are all considerably older than me.

To one in particular, who i will share much more stories about, Dawn was not happy about this. When she asked me how old i was and i replied with 24 (at the time) she exclaimed

“I have 11 years on you!”

The mentality that just because your older means you automatically should have a senior position of juniors is still very much alive in office politics. She makes it her mission to undermine me in front of others, cause arguments with me, and overall shower me in disrespectful behaviour.

Quite frankly it drives me up the wall. And the reason why it does; she goes against all of my professional integrity, all the professional values i believe. I believe i am focused, ambitious and level headed. Dawn is scatter brained, unmotivated and aggressive. Fantastic clash of personalities.

I refuse to let her beat me, so to her face i am unflappable. I let her have her rant about one of my meetings being meaningless to her and then I let her know that it is my meeting and i get value out of it and thats all that matters to me. I let her get angry at the fact i have stuck my oar into an activity she should be managing but has gone tits up but i let her know that i have stuck my oar in because i am the leader and shes let it go tits up.

Over the last 7 months i have had to grow confidence, assertiveness and become a boss ass bitch. And i have learnt more about capabilities that i wasnt aware i had in me.

So cheers to Dawn, for making me be the absolute boss ass bitch that I am right now in this very moment. Heres to all those collegaues who make us feel like we are beneath them but in actuality the reverse is true.

Keep doing what you are doing Dawn, be my guest!

Yes, I am a professional boss-ass bitch…in training

I am 25 years old. I work in project management. I manage a team of 5 people. And i am starting this blog because i have a few stories to tell and a few lessons to share.

I am often telling my friends of quite frankly the most absurd stories to take place in the workplace and they have all responded with “thats hilarious but slightly worrying”. So i thought if i share them with a wider audience, other will either laugh or maybe feel not so quite alone. And without being overly dramatic, i do feel alone in my current job. I know most people think they maybe the smartest one in the room. But never before have i challenged my own thought process as much as here that “am i the only smart one and they are all dumb, or are they all smart and i am the dumb one?”.

To give you an example of the stories I have acquired, i was once shouted at in the middle of the office floor, at my desk, by a woman in her 50s, because during my review of her document (i am a reviewer of all project documentation), i suggested making a change to the ordering of the document so it flowed better. She ran up to my desk, and i got that sinking feeling where you just know you are not going to come out of this conversation the same person you are as you go in. She proceeded to tell me that she thought i was being very rude for altering her document and she was furious and insulted that she was being treated in this way. Her words. I asked if she wanted to go into a meeting room to discuss. She declined. She wanted to show me up in front of all my peers. She continued to berate me to which i said “Lisa, we need to work together in order to support each other properly and i want you to be happy with the support i am giving you” to which Lisa replied “oh do we? Do we really?” And walked off. My peers around me congratulated the way i handled the situation and said that she was in the wrong. And i do believe she was. I would never treat or talk to someone in that way and therefore i don’t expect to be talked to in that manner. After 20 mins or so, I went outside and walked around the block of the office and cried. I felt so embarrassed, so humiliated. And i knew then and there that the role i had found myself in was going to be a learning curve.

That was 6 months ago and i am a much different beast in the workplace now. Well i am a professional boss-ass bitch! So if you sound like you could find some solace in reading my workplace stories then please follow me.